Drew Barrymore is still reeling from her divorce. The talk show host, 49, got candid about the end of her four-year marriage to Will Kopelman, revealing she’s deeply affected by their split. Barrymore and Kopelman, 46, started dating in 2011 and said “I do” one year later. The exes share two children: daughters Olive, 12, and Frankie, 10.

According to the Scream actress, she felt like everything she knew in her personal life was ending. She had monumental whiplash after things were finalized that made her question everything, but she was able to pull herself out of it because of her children, as she explained to the AARP:

Drew Barrymore — who coparents daughters Olive and Frankie with ex Will Kopelman — shared insight into the “heavy” and “sad” chapter following their 2016 divorce.